A GOOD MASTER IS HARD TO FIND BUT A HARD MASTER IS EVEN BETTER!

I got a call yesterday and the first thing I heard when I picked up the phone was "I have the perfect Mistress for you". That's always a good call to get and in this case it was from a Mistress friend who knows me very well. She also knows herself well enough to know that her style and mine are too different for us to really get together.

I don't mind being hooked up, I think its pretty useful but even with hookups, finding a good Master or Mistress isn't that different from dating, or shopping at Marshalls for that matter. I don't know if you've ever been to the Marshalls or TJ Maxx which is pretty much the same experience. If you're a guy I strongly recommend you not enter the store unless you're gay because honestly, I've never met a guy who had the patience to deal with these stores. To be honest, I barely have the patience for it. The concept is a lot like hunting for Easter eggs. You walk in the door and its almost like they're telling you, here in this huge store hidden among piles of absolute crap that you wouldn't want your worst enemy to wear, are actually some pretty good items and pretty good prices. Go have fun!

Its almost like the old drug addict mind teaser we used to joke about. You're at a party and if you want to be really mean to someone, you go up to Mr. Drug Addict and you put your arm around him and make him think he's your buddy and then you point to the target of your devious plan and say "see that guy over there? He's got a ton of cocaine on him, but if you ask him he'll deny it, and if you say I told you this, I'll deny ever talking to you. Go have fun". See the similarity? Its like you're being told there's good stuff in the store. We know its there, they told us! They wouldn't lie to us right?

So now that my thought train has completely derailed, back to the point. Finding a good dominant is a lot like finding those trendy designer clothes at the Marshalls. They're there but you have to dig through piles of crap to find them. I've met and played with a lot of dominants in my time as a little Asian slave whore. What I've learned is that no one thinks they're a bad dominant. I'm not sure that bad is the right word for it, but there's a lot of people who just aren't right for me. I might say hey, I'm looking for a dominant to do all these cruel and nasty things to my naughty brown body and of course lots of hands go up, but that doesn't mean that they're all going to be the right dominant for me. Some might be too inexperienced, unsafe or unknowleagable for example. Others may be only concerned about their own style and desires and have no interest in mine. I can always tell that last group because they won't ask me any questions before suggesting we play. How can you possibly know how to play with me if you don't ask any questions? Finally we get the group that assumes that because they're dominant and I'm submissive that I must obey their commands period. Some of that goes back to inexperience and some is just um, no.

So maybe you're asking why my Mistress friend and I aren't compatible in terms of our styles. She's into the loving and devoted slave routine in which the submissive serves her whims and dedicates her/himself (she's bi too) to her and of course there's some control with a collar but its mostly about servitude and lots of whipping and spanking. This is kind of the opposite of what I'm into which is that I'm a humiliation slut, not a pain slut. Whipping gets boring after a while and if I have to kneel at a person's feet for hours on end I get really bored too. I'm into quick bursts of excitement, its the only way to handle me. Put me on a leash, train me as a dog, dress me in tight fetish outfits and make me go out to the mall, put dildos in my ass and pussy and humiliate me beyond the limits of my imagination. See thats my thing! If I feel really comfortable with someone I'll let them start to modify my body. That's how I ended up with rings in my pussy. I'm still waiting for the next dominant to come along who will make me feel comfortable enough to get rings in my nipples or even humiliating markings!

That's really what it comes down to is anyone can say anything about what they can do or will do but if they don't take the time to get to know what excites me and the things I respond to, well its pretty unlikely that I'll respond to them. I was at a party a couple weeks ago and a dominant tried to get me and I gave him such a hard time, it was almost mean. He's like "come here now!" I said why? "Because I said so". Okey, but why should that compel me to obey you? See where this is going? It went on like that until he got frustrated and walked away. Really I was testing him to see if he would get it, I even hinted around at the answer which was to come talk to me first before you start ordering me around, but I think his head was too big.

And there we have it. If someone is so creative and interesting that they really push my buttons and get me excited, I'm totally dedicated to being their slave. That's my mentality, I don't want to risk messing it up or dissapointing the person and I want for them to keep doing all the things that drive me crazy, so I'll be the most obedient little fuck slut on the planet...but only for the person who can capture my mind in the right way. That's what happens, get my mind and the little brown fuck toy body will definately follow.

While I'm never actively looking for a Master or Mistress and I get enough play with friends and parties and such, its nice when I find someone I can play with who really knows how to make me submit truly. I've had that off and on and I'm sure I'll find it again soon, but its not easy and finding a hard Master or Mistress is definately a good thing.

Did you feel like this post was a little lame? I do too. Next time I'll try to go into detail about what happened to me the last time I was leashed like a sex pet as my exposed little body was forced to do all kinds of naughty things. Those are the kinds of posts I enjoy anyway, but I got into this whole dominant thing and it was fun but I think talking about being humiliated is better.