Pain is Good with a Little Humiliation

I'm not really into pain. I know some girls who are total pain sluts and thats great for them. They tell me about how they enter a different space and mentally things become totally different for them. I'ts not that I haven't tried it or anything because I have. Some things like electricity just wierd me out totally, whipping or flogging is okay but a lot of it depends on how its done. If it's overly repetitious, it starts to get routine and boring and I get to be a bitchy little pain in the ass when I'm bored. On the other hand, if its interupted a lot, some nice rubbing, maybe playing with my tits or pussy and kissing or licking, it can be fun.

That's not to say that I can't take a little punishment. For some reason I'm good with hot wax. Not the super hot burning wax which I've seen but a nice normal wax is good. Plus there's something sexy about my tight little brown body covered in wax. It's especially interesting when it starts to cover my big thick sensitive nipples and especially depending on how I'm bound, it can start to drip down towards my pussy, hardening on my soft little pussy lips. What's really fun about hot wax for me is when its dripped on my tongue. This is a great way to go if I'm locked into a ring or dental gag where my mouth is forced open and especially if my tongue is pulled out so that I totally have no choice. It does freak me out a little while it's happening because I get nervous about swallowing wax, but if you use the right kind of wax on this, then it hardens really fast and so that's not a problem. I think the reason I like wax on my tongue isn't the sensation when it hits, but rather the humiliation of me standing there with a wax covered tongue, unable to bring it back into my mouth and drooling heavily with no control.

So that's the thing for me, I'm just a total humiliation slut. Anything that humiliates me, even if it involves a little pain, I'm a lot more able and willing to deal with than just plain pain for the sake of pain. I'll give you another example which is my pussy. Yes you knew I was going to talk about my pussy right? So when I got my inner labias pierced it stung a little sure ,but the humiliation of it was fantastic. I loved how I could connect my rings with a lock or be leashed by my pussy which is especially humiliating. See what happens is a leash clips through both rings. Then when its pulled, it pulls and stretches my inner pussy lips out so they're being stretched out from my pussy and pulled out in a really abnormal looking way. I know this sounds strange but the sight of it again is SO humiliating because I'm being controlled and leashed by the very part of my body that most identifies me as a slutty little fuck whore and the fact that its being pulled out like that really makes me feel vulnerable and humiliated.

I guess that's why I like to keep my pussy completely hairless at all times. I'm serious, I like it bald down there where if you see me, all you can catch is a glimmer of the rings hanging through my lips. I told you about that session a few weeks ago in which I volunteered to serve for a Mistress friend who had a guy who wanted to be a slaveboy while I was the slavegirl. I get the appeal of it totally because for me, I feel much more humiliated when there's someone there to see or share my humiliation and I think he was the same way. At one point during the session my arms were chained above me, my nipples were tied tightly with string that pulled them very hard to the sides, also pulling my small little tits that way (they're pretty small so they don't exactly pull very far unlike if I had big boobs, but since my nipples are so big, they're perfect for high quality nipple torture) and my legs were spread as far as they could be. It was like I sort of hanging with my legs up and spread if you can picture that. Anyway, my bald little pussy was totally exposed and vulnerable and the little rings just kind of hung down from my inner lips and this guy just could see everything. I still felt embarassed and humiliated because that's part of the point and its not like he hadn't seen this earlier in the session when we were forced on all fours to crawl like dogs and he was behind me and no doubt saw my pussy and asshole with totally clear view, but still, there was something different about this.

Anyway the Mistress began to flog my exposed pussy! It stung a little, especially since its so sensitve there, but it also turned me on so much. I don't know if it was because with most of the hits, my clit got nicely grazed or sometimes the flogger would hit on my rings, but I felt the comforting tingle of humiliation. Well I thought I was humiliated until I really lost control and started peeing. See, I love pee play. I know its not the thing for everything but I love it when people see me pee, I love to pee on others or have them pee on me. Its fun. This was accidental though so it was more humiliation. It wasn't like oh I'm going to squat down and pee and you're going to watch as it comes out of me, this was my pussy is being whipped, I'm trying to control it and I just couldn't control it any more.

The Mistress loved it though and as I started to pee she had the slaveboy stick his face in my pussy so I was peeing in his mouth. I'm sure he enjoyed drinking my pee. You would too right? Well I guess that depends on whether or not you're into pee play right? Still, it's humiliating because it reduces me to the thing that humilates me most, a lowly sex animal who's only function is well, sex. Just an object with one purpose of being fucked or used in a way to bring pleasure. That really turns me on. I guess thats why thinking of being a puppy or ponygirl or a sex doll turns me on so much. In the course of drinking my pee, the guy by the way snuck in a few licks on my pussy. He wasn't supposed to do that, but I didn't tell even though I felt his tongue down there. Hey, I was horny!! The problem was it wasn't enough to make me cum but don't worry, I definately got to cum that day, and I was a humiliated little animal fuck hole when it happened too, but that's a different story I guess.