I Love to See Myself in Bondage or Having Sex
There really were a lot of great comments about my last post so I wanted to thank everyone who shared their thoughts because I really liked reading them. I especially liked some of the ideas on what I should do and I thought the one about me being chained up with a ring gag so I drool all over my naked body was a great one. I also agreed totally with the comment that I should have a mirror in front of myself so I can watch the way my body looks like that.
That particular idea really hit me very hard because I love to see myself in bondage. I guess that's why I love to do the photos and videos and stuff so much is because I can go back and look at my body and for the record, I do get off on looking at myself. See, it's not just other people who are getting horny looking at my little brown body, I do it too! I love to see myself in bondage or forced to do lesbian or whatever. I look beautiful in a ponygirl bridle and bit and I like the way I look in a dog collar too. So that suggestion really hit the mark because if I'm sitting their chained up, drooling through my ring gag and collared and leashed, I can feel everything but I don't get a sense of the whole visual picture in terms of how others see me. I only see pieces of it you know? But if you stick a mirror in front of me, well then I can see everything that everyone else can so I know how exposed I am or how humiliating things look for me and that's very hot.
Its not just bondage either by the way. I've always loved sex in front of a mirror. In my old place my closet doors had big mirrors on them and whenever I had sex in my bed I could look over to that side of the room and see myself. It was very hot. I especially liked it when I was being done doggy style and I was on all fours and I could see everything and it was almost like watching a porn movie except it was real time and I could feel everything that was going on. Very hot. So whether I was being fucked in my pussy or ass or whatever, I could really get even hotter about it because of the visual stimulation that went along with the rest of it.
You know, sex is a very sensory experience and I think the more senses you can get involved in the thing, the better. I like all of it, the smells, tastes, how things feel, the sounds, especially verbal humiliations and reminders of what a little brown whore I am and of course, why not throw the visual in there too.
I'm still making lots of decisions with my pussy though. I'm definately like a guy in that I think of sex all the time and if my pussy likes an idea, I tend to go with it whether its a good idea or not. I've made some bad decisions because of that in the past but my pussy is just so cute that I can't stay mad at it for too long. Hey, it's hard being a horny little three hole slut toy who lives to be fucked anywhere. See, of course I'm still picky and careful and everything else but I'm definately one of those "loose" women that your mother probably warned you about. I don't mind though. Some girls get upset when they're called a slut just for doing what guys do all the time. Me? I embrace my sluttiness! It's a part of who I am and I enjoy it. Of course when I get to watch myself being a slut whore, especially in bondage, well that just makes it even better.
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I agree with your comments on the sensory aspects of sex & bondage. Being straight, I'm not really into admiring pictures of myself (although I'm quite happy with my body). However, I am a HUGE lover of bondage and can't get enough of it. I even love self bondage and reading about others who do it.
Do you ever chain yourself up? I'd love to hear what you have to say about that!
jeffrey
Jeffrey,
Hi, Yes I do self bondage a lot. Sometimes its something as simple as putting myself in a dog collar and leash like I did the other night when I masturbated, other times I'll really chain myself up and gag myself and stuff. Usually I prefer to have someone else do it to be honest because frankly, doing it to yourself just isn't as satisfying. It's not the same at all you know? But there are times when there's no one available to chain me up and in those cases a girl has to take action into her own hands and do things for herself. Hey, a girl has to do what she has to do right?
As for looking at myself, sure I'm bi so I do get off on the bodies of other girls of course, but looking at myself isn't a gay/straight thing at all, its about humiliation and appreciating the condition of my body either in bondage or just when I'm being fucked in my ass like a cheap whore. Either way, seeing the whole package really helps emphasize that feeling.
Anyway, thanks for sharing your thoughts hon okey?
luv,
maliia
I'm actually a little hesitant to do self-bondage. I mean I can picture it in my mind, but to physically do it, no I just can't.
I think we lose an aspect of the confinement: the one where we want someone to bind us, or we want to bind them. The point of the chase is the capture, or so the saying goes. I have an easier time using my imagination to think I'm tied up during private play time than actually binding myself.
Can I play with myself or with others while looking in a mirror (or on T.V. via video for that matter)? Nah, I couldn't. However I can understand why Maliia can and others could. And it isn't a gay/straight deal either; everyone's got their own reasons. I do think folks actually do like the looks of their bodies, or they like the looks of their bodies when they orgasm. I do like it when a woman tries not to sqirm during a tiny little release of cum; especially when I haven't given them permission. (devilish wink).
Have you had enough releases yet, Maliia? No? Okay, I'm going to deck you out in a tight little black latex get up with a very short, actually loose flying skirt that reveals your ass and pussy with every step you take. No panties. Slip on your pony bridle gag, lock on tight. Take your finest Philly pony tail butt plug, lube it up, and insert. Now, with your best blowjob heals walk downtown. No, no: don't try to use your hands to pull that frilly skirt down. Show everyone how bad of a latex pony slut you are.
When you get close to orgasm, you must yell "Will someone please fuck me?"
Hmmmmm........we can dream that, at least. (devilish wink)
Hmm... yes.... Very good dream. But on the matter of self bondage... as I am a top only... I can't really do such to myself. That plus I usually am ont in a position to be a focus of the sexual fun I don't get much use looking at myself.
However I have always been a fan of using them on the person I am playing with. even if its something as simple as holding them and making them watch themselves in a mirror as I am behind then, and fondling and masturbating them. This just falls to my faults at being an artist in my efforts. Better to make them feeling all the sensations and being the focus while I am more a stage crew.... though the fucking always makes it better.
And I just have to feel overwhelmed that my suggestion had been part of your post... My arrogance and ego are swelling now. But... as I like to be in the back ground... I think I would have to agree we instead need our resident brown skinned fuck slut to do a nice little bondage scene with her having to play infront of a mirror, and either record her from behind looking at her reflextion in the mirror, or just a nice photo shoot of that.
-Sinistar
I don't think there's any doubt that self bondage is far inferior to playing with a partner(s). When I am chained up, a key part of the feeling is knowing I cannot escape. This cannot (or should I say, should not) be the case when you do it to yourself. Self bondage can be a kind of "edge play" because of the potential for making a mistake and putting yourself in a dangerous situation (unable to get free and no one to help you).
I can relate to Maliia in another of many ways - I cannot get enough bondage and my opportunities to play with a partner are few and far between. Self bondage is my way of bridging the gap.
jeffrey
You guys have had some great comments so I wanted to thank you for sharing them so far. I also wanted to say that for me when I'm doing self fetish, its not about bondage and not being able to escape. Most of the time when I do that, I don't even really lock myself up. It's more about the feel of the metal against my skin, the way the collar feels and looks around my neck. The feel of the leash as it dangles and the sound of chains clinking as I try to walk or move. It's about feeling my drool drip onto my small breasts and drip down to my nipples where it then drips down in long sticky strands to my thighs if I'm sitting. Especially and this is really the reaosn for it, its about my feeling of humiliation, the reminder that I'm just a degraded fuck toy on a leash and this brings out the greatest reward, the dripping of the thick white liquid from my pussy which drips out of me and runs down my thighs to puddle under me.
Sure, it's a completely different experience from serving another person and it's definately not meant to take the place of that by any means. I would always prefer to play with other people I know and trust, but in the absense of that, I do know how to have a good time on my own when its necessary. I think for me, sometimes it is needed because I'd lose my mind and start humping everything that moved if I didn't get some relief between my playtime with others. Seriously, my sex drive is way out of control, but its a lot of fun too.
Yes... the sensations... I agree - very hot. You paint such vivid and erotic pictures, Maliia. I just need to be there to give those wet nipples a twist, don't you think?
:)
jeffrey
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