No One Wants My Used Gags & Vibrators

Someone sent me an email yesterday wanting to know why I don't sell all kinds of fun stuff like t-shirts, coffee mugs, hats and beach towels with my website name or photo on them. I guess it does sound like a nice way to make a little extra money, though I'm not sure how many people really want to run around with my photo on their chest. Sure, I may be an exciting girl to look at when you're playing with yourself and I love that I've inspired so many orgasms, but still, does that really translate into showing off my cute face when you're shopping at the Wal-Mart? Probably not. Besides, I think people are in different stages about the openness of their sexuality. Some people may be doing really kinky stuff but they don't want anyone else to know about it for a variety of reasons, shame, fear or just because its no one else's damn business what they're into. Others like me are totally open about it and have no problem walking down the street in a collar and on a leash like a bad little puppy slavegirl while dressed as fetish whore Barbie. I think most people are a lot closer to the first one where they like what they like but its not really something they take outside of the house with them. I get this totally. I have friends from bondage clubs and parties who I've run into outside of the scene and they look and act totally different. You wouldn't even recognize them because they compartmentalize areas of their lives, particularly their professional or societal face and their personal face. Even the personal face can get broken up into pieces as the one they might share with their wife or girlfriend and another for the kids, parents, etc.

I know of a lot of relationships frankly in which one person is seriously into BDSM and has huge fantasies and is desperate to do things, but they've told me that their other half doesn't even know they're into it. See, that's hard for me to take. I think if you're going to be in a relationship with someone, you need to be upfront with them about your desires, especially if you trust them. I mean really, if you think they're going to run out of the house screaming just because you want for her or him to chain you up and make you lick their boots, well that tells me there are probably other problems with the relationship and some chains and whips aren't going to be the reason it falls apart even if it looks that way on the surface. Besides, I can think of tons of examples in which you had this situation and finally the person came clean (in a slow, methodical, organized way as not to overwhelm their other half) and discovered either that the person was willing to try it because of love and desire to make them happy or even was really into the idea as well but also was afraid to say anything. Seriously, being honest about this sort of thing, even in small doses will get you a lot more happiness and fulfillment. As I've said before, it can really spice up the sexual relationship too. Let's face it, too much of anything gets boring after a while and that means vanilla sex or bdsm or whatever. So you have to mix things up once in a while and bdsm or roleplay or fetish are great ways to do it.

Anyway, I'm getting off track here, we were talking about why I'm not selling stuff here at my webcage. Sure, I guess it would better promote my site, give me some "branding" (though not the kinky kind) and maybe even put money in my pocket which I would of course love because then I'd have more money for more bondage equipment (that stuff is expensive!) fetish outfits (again, very expensive) and of course sexy stiletto heel boots and shoes, but I'm not sure anyone would buy it both for the reasons I gave above and another thing too.

A couple of years ago I tried to sell some things of mine that were a lot more intimate than just t-shirts and hats. I offered up for sale a lot of the lingerie and some of the fetish clothes from my photo and video shoots and just from my closet too. I thought it was a great idea and I had a couple of crotchless bodysuits (maybe that was the problem, no obvious pussy contact), some lacy panties, stockings, PVC hotpants, bras and other lacy fun things that were next to my silky smooth brown skin. I also had a couple of collars that I wore a lot and quite a few gags that stuffed my cute little mouth, a few of the dildos and vibrators in my collection (well used of course) and a couple of anal plugs including one with a cute little tail on it that I loved. I thought for sure people who were really into me would love that stuff, after all, a lot of girls sell their previously worn intimate stuff online. I figured mine was a lot better than just some pair of 99 cent Wal-Mart granny panties that some girl just slipped on and took off real quick, this was really cool stuff that was actually used on several occasions, sometimes in things you could see on my site and sometimes just because I was feeling horny or I was in the process of getting fucked in one of my little holes.

Well, maybe I didn't market the thing right or present it in the right way. I thought I made things as cool as possible but it just didn't work out and no one really showed much of an interest. So at that point I decided that as sexy and naughty as I am, I guess I'm just not the kind of girl that people want that kind of thing from. I'm okey with that, I mean I'm not offended one way or the other on this. The idea that someone would find things that were in my holes like gags or dildos or on my skin to have such sexual power that they could get pleasure from it is a turn on for me but I already know people like to cum from looking at me so it's not a big deal.

Anyway, so that's what happened. I figured that if people don't want my gags, collars and panties then they certainly won't want a t-shirt or hat with my website or picture on it. Maybe I'm wrong. Anyway, I ended up either just keeping a lot of that stuff, giving it to kinky friends who I play with sometimes or just trashing it if it was time for that (you can't very well give away some of this stuff to Goodwill. I mean you can but come on, they're not going to sell it in their store and they're not going to give it to some homeless person, though frankly that might not be a bad idea for them to have a little porn and kink department in their thrift store). So if there was someone out there reading this and thinking gosh, I would have bought that. Well too late, you missed your chance. For most of you though based on what happened before, I think it probably doesn't matter either way and that's fine with me too. It just means more gags, vibrators, plugs, collars and lingerie for me!