It's Hard to be an Extra Small Slut Girl

So last time I posted a message I was talking about my Old Navy adventures and I guess it must have been really boring because very few people decided to comment on it. For the couple of people who did bother to share their thoughts with me, thanks! You're the coolest kids in the room. The rest of you however need to get your act together okey? And if the problem is that I'm writing just really boring crap, well you can tell me that too okey?

Anyway, the point was that in the post I said that one of the reasons I liked Old Navy was because the carry a lot of small sizes like XS and even XXS. That might not sound like a big deal (actually its a small deal, get it?) but I'm a very small girl. I'm only 5'2 and I'm now around 90 pounds so its hard to find clothes that fit me. I told you before that I sometimes shop at juniors/teen girls sections and stores for clothes and its tough because okey for like fun clothes that's okey but for clothes an adult would wear that is a little more serious well, they just don't have that for teenagers very often.

And they certainly don't have fetish clothes. See, this is my problem. I don't know how into the fetish scene you are but you may have noticed that there's a lot of large and overweight girls into bondage. Some might argue that its a self esteem issue with their appearance that drove them to fetish due to the acceptance or some other psycho babble but I think its perfectly representative of American society. Let's face it gang, two thirds of Americans are overweight and half of those are actually obese. That's not good.

It also means that its hard for a small girl to find what she wants. I'm in the minority in more ways than one. I've always been used to being a slanty eyed brown skinned minority and when you add on the fact that I don't have a penis, well it's tough to be a girl like me. Now you pile on to that the fact that I'm not in the majority of people with weight problems and its just not easy. Hey, I'm not saying anything bad about overweight people for the record, I have friends who are dealing with weight issues and I keep telling them that diets don't work. It's just not going to happen that way because even if you do manage somehow to lose a little weight, the minute you reach your goal (if you reach it) you'll go back to the same habits that likely contributed to your weight gain in the first place. I said the only way to do it is a lifestyle change. You have to get more active, move your body more and its not just about what you eat and how much but also when you eat it plays a role too. Hey, she's making good progress with my advice. The best part of my plan is that there's no guilt for having a cookie or piece of cake or whatever, that kind of thing is okey, its just let's not go overboard with it okey?

Anyway, I'm getting off track here (again!) because the point I was trying to get to was the fact that its very hard for me to find good fetish clothes. I go to stores like Dream Dresser or Pleasure Chest in West Hollywood and they almost never have anything that fits me. Seriously, I can't just buy off the rack generally when it comes to pvc, latex and leather. Every once in a while I'll find a nice corset that fits or some other thing, but its pretty rare and even worse I'm really nervous about ordering online because the return policies for these kinds of stores are just not that friendly and I don't want to be stuck with some pvc dress that was supposed to be small but small for them still is big enough to fit two of me into.

I love fetish clothes too, seriously. I just totally love dressing up as a totally trashy fuck doll whore and showing off what a little piece of ass I am. I've managed over the years to get a few cool fetish dresses and some bras, skirts, corsets, etc. But its been really piece by piece just trying to assemble things that fit. And its not like you can just buy this stuff and take it to the tailor to get it to fit because I found out the hard way that most tailors can't or won't deal with this kind of thing. The one who tried to alter a pair of tight, shiny black pvc shorts for me ended up ruining them. Good thing they weren't too expensive, but that's not the point. Interestingly, a lot of the stuff I do have that I mentioned above was custom made for me. I've had a few people over the last few years who made these things or had a factory or whatever so they hooked me up. But you know, it's never enough! I'd love to run around in latex or rubber but good luck finding anything that fits me and baggy latex is never a good look. It has to be skin tight in order for the affect to be half decent and as I said, they don't really sell this kind of thing in children's sizes. I can't see to many 12 year old girls dressing up as fuck whores in latex and rubber, which is probably a good thing frankly because that's a little young for that sort of thing. Of course I got into bondage when I was in my teens but that's a different story.

See, a lot of time I'll be in an adult store (I love those, so many pretty dildos and I like looking at the bondage magazines and videos too though now with the internet, there's just no reason to leave your house and besides, my webcage should have everything you need right?) and I'll see these fetish articles like in a box like tight shiny opera gloves or leggings or hotpants or whatever and I'll think I bet that's really hot, I want that. But IF they have a box with a small size which is almost never, I'll take that out and look and guess what? Still way too big for me. Ugh! See, its great to have a hot little body but why don't they make it easier for me to show it off? Do they not want to see my tight little brown body dressed like a nasty bondage bitch in heat? Or maybe its just capitalism and they're appealing to the other two thirds of Americans by providing more of those larger sizes. At least I don't have these problems when it comes to getting bondage equipment. A gag doesn't care how small your tits are. Whips don't worry about whether you have a flat stomach or small legs. Chains, dog collars and leashes even aren't worried about how big or small you are really. So maybe that explains why I have like a dozen different kinds of gags, tons of whips, maybe two dozen dog/slave collars, enough chains to weigh down the Titanic and lots of other bondage toys but a relatively small fetish clothing collection (small compared to what it would be if I could ever find my fucking size!).

So that's my story. Sad I know but true and if it frustrates you as much as me then maybe we should have a petition that says that companies should be more concerned with seeing hot little slanty eyed fuck whores dressing hot in fetish clothes that fit them than in providing sizes for the masses. Or maybe they can just have more smaller sizes huh?