Am I a Pornstar or Just a Bondage Schoolgirl?

Thanks for all the great feedback on my spam issue. I know its something that affects everyone but I was suprised I guess that such a non-sexual, unexciting and frankly somewhat annoying issue would generate far more response than any of the hot fetish topics I've discussed. Weird huh?

So I'm still fighting the spam but I got an email today from someone who was excited that a famous pornstar like me would respond to their original note. Its certainly not the first time I've been called a pornstar (though I don't hear famous very often) but it still took me by surprise because I don't think of myself as a pornstar, I'm pretty sure that I'm not very famous and although I have gone to parties or events and hung out with the people who are more considered to be "famous porntstars", I really don't do that very often.

I guess the word famous is relative. Even though a lot of people come to my little webcage so I guess a lot of people know about me, its not like I'm Jenna Jameson or Tera Patrick or anything. I do get a lot of offers to do photo and video shoots but so far FHM and Maxim haven't called to offer me a cover shot and the E! channel hasn't done any stories on me. I guess in my mind that's what famous is, where you're like a brand that pretty much anyone who has any interest in porn at all will know about. I don't think I'm there yet, my pond is a lot smaller. I think a lot of people who are online and have an interest in extreme bondage and fetish MAY have heard of me. That's not quite famous as far as I'm concerned.

Then of course there's the pornstar part. That's a little trickier because to the extent that I do bondage and lesbian in photos and videos, I guess I can't deny that I am in porn. It's true. Does that make me a star though? Well I had to think about this and I guess since I am the focus or star of the photos and videos that I'm in and the other girls are my supporting cast, I guess I am a pornstar in a way, but just a little one. I think if you use a very broad definition that is in which a pornstar can be anyone who is in porn and takes a leading role in the process, then okey, I'll take it. I always think of most pornstars as being girls who will suck cock or be fucked or do anal or whatever on film or in photos. I actually have no problem with doing those things and honestly I love to do them a lot but I just don't talk about it very much here which is another subject that I'll probably discuss another time. But anyway, here my focus is pretty much exclusively lesbian and definately bondage themed. I mean I love sex and all but I don't want for it to be my job. On the other hand, bondage is so fun for me that I don't mind doing it for photo or video because even though it can take a long time to get a shoot done, I just feel so turned on anyway. You know, it never turns into a job, does that make sense?

I think I'm kind of babbling all over the place here, but the point is just that while I had never thought of myself as a pornstar despite hearing it many times before and knowing what I do here fits into that catagory, still I was very flattered upon hearing it because the title is kind of sexy and naughty but still fun. Maybe I should clarify though by saying I'm an online bondage pornstar. That could work too.

I was going to go to a party tonight at a fetish friendly club but now I'm not sure because the friend I was going to go with is backing out on me so either I need to find other friends to go with or I won't go (I don't want to go alone you know for a lot of reasons). I was pretty excited though because I was going to go as a naughty schoolgirl. Seriously, I got a new schoolgirl outfit with a little skirt that barely covers my ass, a tight white crop top that shows off my belly and gives me great cleavage despite my small boobs, white fishnets and of course black platform stilettos. I thought about wearing a dog or other collar with it too (or maybe picking up a cute little pink collar) just as a reminder that I'm not just a schoolgirl but a bondage schoolgirl. I usually don't wear panties when I can avoid it, but this being a club and not a party coupled with the fact that this skirt is SO short that my ass and pussy WILL be on display (which could be exciting except there are certain legal issues given the venue) that I may have to resort to putting on a white g-string. Anyway, does that sound delicious? I think so too. Hopefully I'll get a chance to do that but if not, there will always be another chance for me to be a naughty and horny little schoolgirl for you.